Monthly Archives: October 2019

It only takes one sin

I’ve been reading through the Old Testament this fall, and I am almost done with the book of Numbers. I wouldn’t say Leviticus and Numbers are two of my favorite books of the Bible. In fact, I get tired of reading the words “unclean” and all of the descriptions and laws surrounding this theme. The word “unclean” and its cognates occurs 132 times in the Old Testament; over 50 percent of these are in Leviticus.  All these mentions of clean and unclean show us our need for a Saviour. They show us the beauty of Jesus and how he came to save those who are lost and sick and “unclean.”

I love the storyline of the Israelites, their Exodus and their wanderings in the wilderness. As I’ve read through the story again this fall, I’ve gotten frustrated by all the grumbling and complaining the Israelites did when God was SO good to them! He had mercy time and time again. He saved them. He delivered them. He defeated their enemies. He provided for them! He gave them His presence and he daily guided their steps. In all of this goodness they complained. They threatened to go back to Egypt. They tested God. They spoke against Him, and they failed to be content with the miracles he’d done and was continuing to do. God could have destroyed these stiff necked people when they angered his heart with their rebellion and unbelief, but time and time again he showed mercy and love.

The story of Moses has always fascinated me. His relationship with God was SO intimate. He spoke with God as a man speaks with a friend, face to face. He received instructions from the Lord for the people of Israel and was faithful to do and to say, everything just as God commanded Him. Except in ONE thing. The people of Israel were again grumbling and complaining. They needed water and came to Moses in anger telling him that they should never have left Egypt. Moses went before the Lord, exasperated by the people and asked God what to do. The Lord told him to speak to a specific rock and that water would flow out as a result. Moses then led the people to this rock and Moses struck the rock. In doing so, water came gushing out.

But because Moses struck the rock instead of speaking to it, God told him that he would never enter the promised land. Yikes. Are you kidding me? Why!? He almost got it right. The water still came out….

This story has always bothered me. I mean, come on God! This man who obeyed you in everything else, this man who spoke to you face to face, this man who led your people out of Egypt and guided them through the wilderness, this man who was the most humble man in the whole earth, this man who wrote the first five books of the Bible, this man who fell on his face in intercession for your people. HE can’t enter the promised land because of ONE mistake! After years and years of serving God, that’s it. This always seemed a little harsh to me, but because I know that God’s ways are higher than mine and that God is always good, I just let it go and considered it a part of the Bible I didn’t fully understand.

Today, while driving my big white van, I was thinking about how in my own life, I’ll be trekking along, serving God, hearing His voice, and then bam. I sin. I mess up. I hear God wrong. I fail to do what God asks me to do. I complain like an Israelite. Ugh. Then I thought of Moses. It only took one sin to separate this man of God from the promise. It only takes one sin to separate me from God.

James 2:10 “For whoever shall keep the whole law, and yet stumble in one point, he is guilty of all.”

Isaiah 59:2 “But your iniquities have separated you from your God; And your sins have hidden His face from you, So that He will not hear.”

It doesn’t matter how good I am MOST of the time. It doesn’t matter how often I keep God’s law, read his Word, pray, or serve Him. If I stumble even at ONE point, then I don’t deserve the promise. I too am unworthy to enter the Promised Land.

Romans 3:23 says, “All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

Now here is where I see the gospel revealed in the book of Numbers!

Romans 5:12 -21 tells us the good news of Jesus! Jesus’ obedience brings us face to face with the Father! Jesus’ obedience makes a way for US to enter the Promised Land!

I love how this passage of scripture is written in The Message Translation.

12-14 You know the story of how Adam landed us in the dilemma we’re in—first sin, then death, and no one exempt from either sin or death. That sin disturbed relations with God in everything and everyone, but the extent of the disturbance was not clear until God spelled it out in detail to Moses. So death, this huge abyss separating us from God, dominated the landscape from Adam to Moses. Even those who didn’t sin precisely as Adam did by disobeying a specific command of God still had to experience this termination of life, this separation from God. But Adam, who got us into this, also points ahead to the One who will get us out of it.

15-17 Yet the rescuing gift is not exactly parallel to the death-dealing sin. If one man’s sin put crowds of people at the dead-end abyss of separation from God, just think what God’s gift poured through one man, Jesus Christ, will do! There’s no comparison between that death-dealing sin and this generous, life-giving gift. The verdict on that one sin was the death sentence; the verdict on the many sins that followed was this wonderful life sentence. If death got the upper hand through one man’s wrongdoing, can you imagine the breathtaking recovery life makes, sovereign life, in those who grasp with both hands this wildly extravagant life-gift, this grand setting-everything-right, that the one man Jesus Christ provides?

18-19 Here it is in a nutshell: Just as one person did it wrong and got us in all this trouble with sin and death, another person did it right and got us out of it. But more than just getting us out of trouble, he got us into life! One man said no to God and put many people in the wrong; one man said yes to God and put many in the right.

20-21 All that passing laws against sin did was produce more lawbreakers. But sin didn’t, and doesn’t, have a chance in competition with the aggressive forgiveness we call grace. When it’s sin versus grace, grace wins hands down. All sin can do is threaten us with death, and that’s the end of it. Grace, because God is putting everything together again through the Messiah, invites us into life—a life that goes on and on and on, world without end.

The promised land. Moses couldn’t enter the promised land because he sinned. I can’t enter the Promised Land because I sin. But because of Jesus and what He did in taking sin upon himself, dying on the cross, and three days later rising from the dead, I can now know God face to face. I can now enter the Promise. I can now experience His rest.

Ephesians 2:8-9 says, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.”

John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

I sin. I sin everyday. I fail to meet God’s standards. But God doesn’t leave me in my sin. He gave me a Savior. I don’t just live in sin because I have a Savior. I’m not content to let sin reign in my life. No WAY! Jesus came to save me from my sin. I want it OUT! When I put my faith in Jesus, I DIE. I die to my sin and the hold it once had on me. I say yes to new life. I say yes to taking up MY cross because of what Jesus has done for me.

Romans 6:1-7 says “What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?  Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his. For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,that we should no longer be slaves to sin—  because anyone who has died has been set free from sin.

I’ve got a Promised Land to come – HEAVEN. But I also live in the promised land now. I have righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit. God’s Word is my manna, My daily bread. The Holy Spirit guides me into all truth and gives me everything I need to live a godly life. God’s kingdom comes and His will is done one earth as it is in Heaven when we seek God’s kingdom and His righteousness first.

When Moses communicated with God His face shone! It shone so brightly that he had to wear a veil to cover his face.

2 Corinthians 3:16 through 18 says, “But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.  Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”

It only takes one sin to separate us from God! It only takes one sin to keep us from the promised land.

Today, I encourage you to look for the gospel when you read scripture. Even if you are reading in Leviticus, Numbers, Ezekiel, Song of Songs, or the book of Acts. At my church our pastors teach through books of the Bible and it seems like every Sunday, no matter what scripture passage we are studying, the message ALWAYS points to the gospel, the good news of Jesus Christ. The gospel is everything. JESUS is everything!

I also encourage you to acknowledge your sin and confess it to the Father. 1 John 1:8-9 says, “If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

Read some Biblically based historical Christian fiction. I love reading Biblical historical Christian fiction. It helps me to see scripture in a new light and connects passages of scripture and history for me in a way that makes the Bible even more alive to me. I recently read through the Out of Egypt series by Connilyn Cossette. You can check these books out at the Library:). This series was fun to read alongside the books of the Bible I’ve been reading.

Two other good series to read are The Lineage of Grace and Sons of Encouragement by Francine Rivers.

Finally, listen to the song “Only Jesus” that our 5-6 year olds did a dance to in our last year’s Lighthouse Dance Production of “Garden.”

Close Your Eyes and Open Your Ears

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This week is parent observation week at Lighthouse Dance. I told our teachers before hand that something they may say in their devotional, a scripture they may share, or a worship exercise they do may not only minister to their students, but to the parents as well.

Monday night, in the middle of my daughter’s ballet class, Miss Abbey told her students to close their eyes and open their ears to what God had to say to them. I don’t remember what happened next in the class, whether they prayed or began stretching or what. My mind was fixed on  “Close your eyes and open your ears.”

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Our theme for Lighthouse Dance this season is “Vision.” This theme is all about seeing. It’s about getting God’s vision for our lives, seeing from His perspective, and seeing beyond what we see with our physical eyes. It’s about fixing our eyes on Jesus who is the author and finisher of our faith.   We fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, asking God to heal both our physical and spiritual eyes.

Ultimately, we want our vision to be Jesus.

We “see” so many pictures every single day. We are bombarded by images, highlights, and sneak peaks into friends and strangers lives via social media. We are constantly presented with images of what our home should look like, what our children should look like, what we should look like whether on Pinterest, tv, movies, or magazines. We are constantly looking around us, making judgments based upon what we see.  I’ve even included images in this post:).

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What if our ability to see beyond the physical depended upon our willingness to close our eyes? What if closing our eyes to the “images” around us made us able to truly see what God wants us to see?

I recently took a month long break from social media.  In closing my eyes to my Facebook and Instagram feed, I opened my eyes to the people right in front of me.

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With less to look at on a screen, my children received more of my attention. I felt less stressed, more content, more at peace, and more connected to the people I spoke with, face to face.

Sometimes we have to close our eyes to the way things look around us in order to see things the way God sees them.  Difficulties in my relationships, work, or life circumstances can seem overwhelming when I see them with my own eyes, but when I close my eyes to my own vision, and see things through God’s vision, I see the impossible become possible and what is heavy become light.  I see His perspective.  I see His heart for people.  I HEAR His truth.

My sense of hearing gets strong when my eyes are closed.   The same could be said when I close my ears to sounds of distraction, the radio, podcasts while driving, or music, and instead embrace the silence. In silence I am more able to see what God wants me to see and hear what he wants me to hear.

Silence is not easy for me. I like noise. I like the sound of my children talking, playing and laughing. I love music while I’m cooking, podcasts while I’m driving, and even white noise while I’m sleeping. Complete silence makes me uncomfortable and is something I don’t experience often. But the Holy Spirit is convicting me and showing me the beauty of open ears to hear the Lord and open eyes to see him by embracing silence. This means both visual and audio silence.

My phone is my biggest distraction and prevailing source of distracting noise in my life. With it, I check and answer emails, I read texts, I check social media, I respond to event invitations, I do google searches, I get directions, I make phone calls, I plan my weekly menus, I listen to music and podcasts,  I take notes, schedule appointments, look up recipes, look up health concerns, track my period, and list goes on and on and can be done at any given hour of the day or of the night. My phone is a fabulous tool and help in my life, but every day, I NEED to close my eyes and my ears to my phone in order to hear God’s voice and see with His eyes.

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Close your eyes and open your ears.  

My bathtub is a place where I hear God’s voice. When I bring my phone alongside my bath, I take away that sweet time for Jesus’ voice to speak to me and for me to receive His rest.

Car drives are a time when I hear God’s voice. When I constantly listen to the radio or my favorite podcast, I deny myself the opportunity to hear what Jesus has to say just to me.

When I check my social media pages in the middle of my Bible reading time, I communicate to the Lord that His Word isn’t enough for me.

When I’m always needing podcasts or music while I go on walks or hikes,  I’m missing out on the opportunity to pray.

God has used my phone and the things I come across on it to speak to me. No doubt about it!  The Holy Spirit encourages me in many different ways.  This isn’t an anti cell phone or anti social media post.  I choose music and podcasts and social media pages that feed my soul good food. However, NONE of those things can satisfy me like God’s word can.

I got a journaling Bible this summer in England. We stayed in Cornwall, England for Creation Fest.  There’s an artist from Cornwall who does scripture verse art with much of her art inspired by the Cornish countryside. Her artwork is sold at Creation Fest. My journaling Bible has her colorful artwork spread throughout. I started reading through the Bible again this fall and that break from social media helped me to get into God’s word see God’s Word more clearly.

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God has been showing me His goodness and the power of the gospel throughout all of scripture, even through those “boring” books like Leviticus and Numbers.   When I close my eyes to “other things”, God’s Words brings life, becomes my desire, and speaks intimately to my spirit.

I want my vision to be Jesus.   I want what I am looking at, listening to, and filling myself with to point to Jesus. The Holy Spirit can use many creative things to point us to Jesus. This includes funny things, serious things, people, art, nature, science, and the list goes on and on.  I’ve been greatly impacted by  a variety of movies and books.   I feel joy, contentment and closeness to the Lord when I’m outside, in nature. Finding music for dances and dance classes is one of my favorite ways to connect with Jesus.

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Sometimes, God asks me to close my eyes to certain things so that I grow deeper in my relationship with him and to protect me from sin. There have been multiple tv show series over the years that I’ve been in the middle of watching when the Holy Spirit has spoken to my heart and said, “Enough. No more. Give that up for me.” Ugh… Initially, I feel frustrated when that still small voice convicts me, but when, by God’s grace I choose to obey, I feel free and the obedience is only painful for a short time.

I want to hear what the spirit is saying!

Close your eyes and open your ears.   What is the Spirit saying to me? What does He want me to hear? Who does He want me to pray for? What scripture does He want me to meditate on? God is so gracious to speak in the midst of noise. He’s so good to speak to me even on those days when I check my phone while in the middle of reading His Word. He’s so good to never leave me, to never forsake me, even when I fall so short in fixing my eyes on Him.

God’s “no” is ALWAYS for a greater good.   Sometimes, He asks us to say “no” to good things. I get a lot out of movies, books, podcasts, and social media at times. But if He says, “Get into the quiet. Close your eyes to the distractions.” Then I want to obey, because I know in that obedience is great reward! The reward of righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit. The reward of knowing I am in the center of God’s will. The reward of knowing I am in communion with my Father and receiving his love with open eyes, open ears, and an open heart!

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As a mom of 6 children, distraction is inevitable. My kids are 19, 17, 13, 10, 8, and 6. Life is FULL!   Full of distractions that come at all times of the day or night.  This is a driving reason for me to close my eyes and silence my ears to the things that God tells me to say “no” to.  I NEED to hear God’s voice.  I NEED His wisdom and understanding.  I NEED HIM!   I want to be present when my teenagers (yes, I have THREE teenagers now) come to me at 10:30 at night needing to share a struggle.   I want to be present when my 6 year old asks me to cuddle her before bed. I want to be present when I’m homeschooling each morning, or when I’m visiting with a friend. I want to be present with my husband when He needs my love and my attention.

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I close my eyes so that I can see the people right in front of me.  

I don’t have this down. I don’t always close my eyes and open my ears. I am convicted even as I write this. This is something the Holy Spirit is currently speaking to my heart with a greater revelation given to me just three days ago!  I want to grow in this area because I deeply want eyes to see, ears to hear, and a heart to understand.  I want to follow Jesus and I want to help others to follow Him too.

So even though I’m not even close to having this down.  Here’s some things I have been doing to help me to close my eyes and open my ears.

  1. Most days, I keep my phone turned off until lunch time. I homeschool four of our children in the morning.   If I turn on that phone before lunch, I’m sure to get some text that distracts me and begs for my attention whether it’s work related or not. Keeping my phone turned off the first half of the day has done wonders in making me a more peaceful and present homeschooling mom.
  2. I keep my phone out of the bathroom. I felt like this was a huge request from the Lord to me over a year ago. My tub is my place of rest and renewal. I have failed in this multiple times over the past year, but for the most part I keep my primary form of distraction out of my bathroom so that I can better connect with God and rest.
  3. I’m not quick to respond to most texts or emails. If I’m in the middle of something with my husbands or kids, my response to a text can wait. Texting is fabulous. I love it, actually, but I am in control of my texting, not texting in control of me.
  4. I set time limits on my social media use on my phone. I have my time limit set for 20 minutes each day. It’s amazing how fast that 20 minutes goes!  I often click on that request option for 15 more minutes when my time is up, but setting a limit has certainly helped me from going overboard scrolling through my feeds.
  5. I know that when I’m tired or stressed I’m more likely to want to fill myself with images and sounds instead of embracing the silence and connecting with my Father. Knowing this helps me to turn to Jesus, my journal, and God’s Word even when my inclination is to distract myself.
  6. I open to hearing God say “No. When He I sense Him telling me to stop watching that tv series on amazon prime, stop reading that book, or to take a break from social media, I know that he must want to take me deeper. He has “YES” for me that is better than any pain that comes from His “no.”
  7. I read the Bible. God’s Word is life. I need it. You need it. We need it!   The primary way God speaks to us is through His Word. And anything we hear from God should be in accordance to His Word or it’s not from Him. The more of God’s Word that we hide in our hearts, the more we are able to hear the Holy Spirit speak. When I’m in times of dryness and I don’t feel like reading my Bible, I ask the Lord to give me a hunger and love for His Word again and He always does!   My journaling Bible has helped me to get hungry and dig in during this season!

Here are some things I want to do or do more of as I seek to close my eyes and open my ears:

  1. I want to embrace more silence. Whether that’s on a walk, driving, or just laying in bed before I go to sleep. I want to press through my uncomfortableness with silence and make myself at home there.
  2. I want to keep my phone out of hand and out of sight one day a week. Sunday could be a great day for this.
  3. I want to consistently choose to read a good book, journal, read THE Good Book, or connect with someone face to face when I’m stressed or tired and tempted to escape by scrolling through my phone.
  4. I want to be quick to listen and quick to obey. There’s so much joy in hearing God’s voice and doing what He says to do. I need to grow in quick obedience.
  5. I want to respond to what the Lord speaks to me through His Word. What in scripture might he be speaking to me for myself, and what might he want me to share with others to encourage them?
  6. I want to keep my phone out of hand and out of sight in the evenings when my younger children are gathered around me before bed.  I get the itch to get on my phone right around our kids’ bedtime and I think they know this.
  7. I want my prayer time to include more of me listening to Jesus and what He wants and says, then me just telling him all of my needs and concerns. He is worthy to receive all honor, glory, and praise. He is worthy to receive my eyes and ears and heart!

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What might God be speaking to you? How may he be asking you to close your eyes and open your ears?

God wants to speak to YOU.

“Speak Lord, for your servant is listening.” 1 Samuel 3:9

For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” Isaiah 30:15

” So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.” Romans 10:17

Give ear, O my people, to my law;
Incline your ears to the words of my mouth.” Psalm 78:1 

“Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things,
And revive me in Your way.”  Psalm 119:37

“While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:15

“The Lord God has given Me The tongue of the learned, That I should know how to speak A word in season to him who is weary. He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear To hear as the learned.”  Isaiah 50:4

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